Monday, May 10, 2010
"My Name is Reed.... and I'm a Athletic Supporter"
They say confession is good for to soul so what better way to start out my week, than with a confession.
"My Name is Reed...... and I am a Athletic Supporter"
Now as you can imagine this is hard for me to admit but there is a freeing in doing so. I came to this realization through a intervention of my own thoughts. If we understand that "Any behavior rewarded... gets repeated" then what am I rewarding.
So I sat on my couch watching the Red Sox vs Yankees game with the recall on the remote going back to the Celtics- Cavs game but wait there is the Bruins game. So now I need to remember one channel while going back and forth between the first two when I see a commercial for Nascar and sure enough its on a 4th channel. Oh no! Before I know it I realize I am addicted, but how did this happen. How come I didn't see it coming. Why am I glued to the set when I hear that Tiger Woods is injured with a bulging dick in his back? Oh, I mean disc! What have I become. How come I keep supporting the misguided behavior of a few who can throw well, hit well, or run well and I do not choose support the arts? DAMN!
True to 12 step formats I need to go to the people I have hurt and express my short comings.
I need to be aware of what I actually have control over and what is beyond my control and move forward . I need to be accountable for my actions. I need to take life one day at a time, one moment at a time with the realization I will always be a Athletic Supporter.
1) To all the people who want to see me create beautiful paintings I apologize for not filling that void in your life and promise to create again.
2) Although I want the "GOVERNMENT" to support the arts I realize that I am falling short myself by subscribing to NESN and not balancing that out with a good book, seeing a performance or dance, or paying to go to a museum.
3) Although it will be hard at first I will try to factor all my purchases through "how does this purchase support the Arts or my Community"?
Now to make sure I am accountable I need people to be watching me. To see if I am following through with the promises I have made today. To firmly remind me when I fall short and start to slip.
Boy, do I feel better now or what.....